Jan. 19th, 2017

spikethemuffin: (Gardening)
Depression hit me like Ebola tonight. I am bleeding tears from everywhere. You know how they used to say that Freyja was so distressed that blood burst from her fingertips and became lightning? That is how unaccountably sad I am.

I am reading my victim's e-mails, from the last few months, when things were good, as things go, because he came back from heartbreak and poverty and a terrible and has a wonderful life with a devoted wife and a delightful job now.

I hope and I hope and I hope somewhere out there is the wonderful wife for me, but I suspect I am and will always be the problem.
spikethemuffin: (Gardening)
That thing where you act like patients calling to make appointments are being annoying, childish, and whiny, even when they're just scheduling a routine appointment? That's gotten old. I don't think it was ever young.


Jan. 19th, 2017 04:10 pm
spikethemuffin: (Gardening)
Depression is worse and worse. Combined with other symptoms, think it's very much thyroid bottoming out AGAIN, and will have to go to doctor. Leaving recent signs of teh crazee up, to remind me not to let it go so long, and so as not to gaslight those who read this blog. ("Wait, wasn't she just mumbling idiocy about...")


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